i swear i keep telling myself that i dont want to talk abt these things anymore but i cant help it. lets talk abt our emotions!!! i was thinking abt this one scene in deltarune again where ralsei is trying hard to stay positive all the time but kris tells him that its ok not to smile all the time
oh my god bruh. i didnt cry when i first saw it but now this is making me violently sob. i cant with deltarune... i wish i had a friendship like this. this scene got me thinking abt how chronically lonely i am ðŸ˜ðŸ˜i wish i would stop talking abt how lonely i am because its getting annoying.
thinking abt how im gonna become an adult this year and i still got the most childish hopes and dreams like having a lot of friends or a friend group and having my friends throw me a birthday party💀
once i become an adult friendships like that arent possible anymore cuz everyone's grown and have responsibilities and they already did all that stuff in their teen years except for the lonely people 💀
bruh im so scared of becoming an adult cuz i literally had 0 social development in my teen years since i had no friends and not even close with my family so i was basically alone in my room all the time. i just know im gonna be an annoying immature adult 💀i hope i can learn to function like a real adult and mature quickly cuz i dont wanna be seen as one of those immature people
also speaking of loneliness- i really truly do not understand the "male loneliness epidemic." one time in stem design class these two boys next to me were talking abt how nobody cares abt mens mental health and i had to laugh. do u really think anyone cares abt womens mental health either. nobody cares abt anyone's mental health bro ðŸ˜
on compliments -
im 90% sure i already posted abt this but im gonna talk abt it again cuz its been on my mind. i think i mentioned before that i feel absolutely nothing whenever i get a compliment. i think thats cuz i dont feel proud abt anything. the only compliments i get is on my artwork and lowkey im not proud of most of my art 💀sometimes i can cook something up real good but most of the time nahh.
i dont get how some people become so happy whenever they get a compliment like. i just say thank you and then go on abt my day
other -
nothing funnier in this world than when an artist is like fuck beauty standards!!!! and yet they only draw conventionally attractive people. i just saw an artist like this on instagram where they made a piece that was critiquing beauty standards but then u scroll through their acc and its all just portraits of conventionally attractive people. bonus points if they only draw east asian women
your hopes and dreams of friendship arent childish youre literally still a teenager and have been deprived of enough love and friendships most of your life 😠it is harder to make friends as an adult but i think those dreams can still come true somehow, i see it happen to other people so why not you too
ReplyDeletein 12th grade & college i hope you can develop more socially. to me youre a mature person and not annoying... youre smart and dont think in just black and white so i wouldnt worry about that a lot. also lots of adults say they dont feel mature even in their 30s and 40s so idk maybe its a long journey.
i heard people who dont feel anything from compliments, its bc they have low self-worth and getting complimented directly opposes their inner image of themself so they reject it. maybe its that. also i get the art thing cuz i feel the same way but your art really is genuinely good and people love it ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ like the comments under that one devilman fanart you did. there are things about your art that i envy too
ty for this why do i feel like i never deserve anything good in life
Deletealso thank god u think im mature i still feel like im mentally 14 bro when will it get better
ty for saying my art is good i know it i need to stop having such low self esteem
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