daily thoughts 8/1/25

on school -

no way its already august man why did july go by so fast what

hhhh ive been worrying abt school lately. its my senior year and i get so worried abt making friends. goddd everyone already has their own friends and it makes me feel like im never gonna be able to achieve my goals. but it makes me feel better cuz my other friend from diff state also is gonna try to make friends in their senior year since they dont have a lot in junior year

on ryuichi sakamoto -

watching this interview of ryuichi is so fascinating. listened to the entire thing during art class. 

also i was surprised he was this good at english like he uses big boy words thats crazy. i know he lived in new york for a few years in like the 2000s?? i think but still thats incredible cuz he was like 40-50 years old by then and he learned a language at such an old age. woww. esp since japanese and english are such different languages

also his little thank you at the end is so cute. aww my little gilf <3

also more on ryuichi- he truly is so inspiring to me. like he couldve been one of the those mean bitter old artists who thinks theyre better than everyone else just cuz they had more experience but he chose kindness instead <3 

like he collabs with literally everyone even artists that nobody has even heard of. hes collabed with like david byrne, thundercat, ichiko aoba, etc (it would literally take an hour to list all his collaborations). his view on collaboration actually inspires me. like how from collaborating, he learns stuff from younger and newer artists and that inspires him to create even more creative music. i hate collaborating with people but this might lowkey change me. i need to be more open-minded like ryuichi

ryuichi couldve easily been a pretentious asshole who thinks hes the greatest musician thats ever lived but nahh hes so chill and just such a cool grandpa i love him so much

also this ramble abt ryuichi is getting so long but one last thing i wanna watch his movie documentary coda so bad. ive only seen screencaps of it but im already mesmerized by it

i know watching this will alter my life permanently. ryuichi is truly the ideal type of artist (and person tbh) that i want to be. kind, caring, open-minded but also goofy and treats people nicely and strives to create change in the world <3 genuinely miss him so bad he never shouldve died man