daily thoughts 2/28/26

suddenly drawing so much again

bro idk what happened but im drawing so much lately. i literally havent drawn freely for like a year or two or something. and now today i spent the whole day drawing. whats happened. and i can actually draw well too not just shitty doodles. were so back everyone. is it cuz the weather is getting warmer and things arent depressing and dark and gray. literally drew something so incredible for my friends bday coming soon and why did i actually peak with this. 

today was actually so peak bro the weather was amazing. i read a book. i did some homework. i drew. a lot. i listened to like 3 different albums. this is what its all about.

yuki + dog

bugs when u lift up the rock:

chat is ts tuff also drawing different eyes / eye shapes gotta be the hardest thing ever bro i can never get it right

doing random tier lists cuz im board

years tier list

kagepro songs tier list

kagepro chars tier list

my age tier list

holidays tier list

months tier list

song otd 2/27/26

Today's song of the day is Umbral Ultimatum from Homestuck! this is one of my fav songs from homestuck. its soo goood. am i crazy or does this song kinda remind me of a ymo composition. i also love the part at 2:08 the 8bit part its so good. 

ok i just found out this song is composed by toby fox that make sense why it reminds me of ymo. this song sounds very touhou and toby fox loves his touhou project and touhou is most definitely inspired by ymo. 

bro i  be doing anything on my school laptop except for actually working

daily thoughts 2/26/26

ranking days of the week for no reason:

best to worst btw

1. thursday

2. friday

3. saturday

4. tuesday

5. wednesday

6. monday

7. sunday

also my school blocked the homestuck website im gonna kms what am i supposed to do now during homeroom

school

does anyone else just feel like theyre on the verge of tears everytime they enter school. bro like its actually so distressing just to attend. 

computer lab

Another art for school. i like it kinda idk. but something feels weird. i think i shouldve added something to the ceiling. it kinda has a weird composition

daily thoughts 2/25/26

kagebros

kagepro used to be big big ngl. if u were around like 2010s youtube kagepro songs were everywhere on the internet. iirc i discovered kagepro in like 2015 or maybe 2016 and i became a fan in like 2016- early 2018. i got into it 2 years after the hype died 💔

is genuinely crazy i remember how popular kagepro used to be but now its kinda forgotten 😭but only in the west because kagepro fandom is still going strong on the eastern side. like jp and kr kagepro fandom is still big. i see kagepro tweets that still get 100k likes on jp twitter. kagepro was my alien stage. 

like kagepro actually used to be so popular like so many popular artists on social media used to draw kagepro fanart. it was an actual cultural phenomenon like undertale and fnaf and homestuck 💔and im 90% sure every single person who was around 2011-2017 youtube listened to a kagepro song before or atleast saw what it looks like. 

it makes me happy that kagepro is like japanese early gen z's cultural internet zeitgeist. the same way undertale took over the internet in 2015-2016 and every gen z kid was into it. 

speaking of fandoms and whatnot

i wish otaku culture was as good in the west as it is in japan. bro japanese otaku are genuinely so dedicated they get into one piece of media when they were 12 and theyre like 30 years old now and they still love it just as much they used to when they were a kid.

i feel like fandoms in the west die after like a month 😭it dies so quickly bro. but in japan theres still decades old fandoms that are still going strong and people drawing fanart everyday

i love seeing jp unc kagepro fans talk abt their youth and how much they used to love kagepro. my favorite pasttime is going to the comment section of old kagepro vids and jp kagebros talking abt how cringe they used to be acting like they were part of the main cast of characters😭its so heartwarming 🩷

daily thoughts 2/24/26

i forgor how much it sucks doing things alone 

bro everytime it happens it feels soul crushing actually like damn nobody gaf 😭i had an nahs meeting like last week or something and me and my friend went there. but she only stayed there for like 5 mins till she left to another club to go talk to other friend and her sister instead. and i was just like ok... 😭

we were supposed to do some painting activity in nahs but i left cuz staying there made me feel like a lonely loser. and i just walked home and bruh i never felt so alone walking home. i was walking home like this 

like bro does anyone actually wanna do anything with me or do i have to beg everytime 😂😂does anyone care 😂does anyone care at all 😂😂

school clubs are genuinely boring af

i feel like school clubs used to actually be kinda fun but now its the most boring thing in the world like they were never that fun but i feel like it used to be better. idk maybe its cuz i lost all school spirit but i genuinely never go to clubs anymore at all. unless my friend asks me to come. 

and these club managers suck so bad bro. like they literally never make u feel included in at all and they also do the most boring activities ever and then wonder why they get 0 participation and eventually fail. ppl talking about how joining clubs will get u friends like no bro. everyone always comes to clubs with their friends already.

song otd 2/22/26

Today's song of the day is Daze from Kagepro! holy nostalgia. bruh i remember watching this when i was like 10 or something and i thought it was the coolest shit ever. i still think its the coolest shit ever. bru i remember i wanted one of those hoodies so bad when i was a kid. 

i love the mv so much. its so cool. i love sidus art so much. that little bridge at 2:32-3:00 is so catchy. i keep replaying it. still a top 5 kagepro song oat for me. oh my god kagepro i love u so much. what a banger

and oh my god my little yuukei quartet crumbs 💔💔this mv has so much attention to detail actually if ur a kagepro fan u would notice

lets daze!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭

also kinda unrelated related but i just saw my fav ddlc artist used to post kagepro fanart and it was HARUTAKA FANART BRO 😭😭😭😭😭💀💀💀💀💀🥀🥀🥀🥀i actually jumped up in joy bro oh my goodness harutaka fans used to eat so good. aint no way ur joking. i love joining an ancient fandom and seeing all the peak fanart throughout the years.

daily thoughts 2/21/26

yall know that thing when someone says something like everytime i meet someone new i wonder how long it will take for them to be disappointed in me. and im like that but the opposite #lowkey. i get disappointed by so many ppl. everytime every single relationship theres always that something that makes me feel disappointed 😭 or just even something small like an annoying habit ticks me off. idk how i still maintain relationships when im this annoyed

and its wrong for me to feel this way cuz nobody is perfect obviously but it makes me more mad than it should. and if someone called me a bad person for this i would agree with them. but im a person that dislikes hiding emotions so im just gonna say it out loud. 

ofc i like my friends more than i dislike them lmao uhbtghhrbuh that sounds so bad but i swear i mean it. and sometimes i do confront them abt their annoying habits and most of the time they just deflect so it just goes back to normal. i guess this is the price for every relationship. im 18 years old and i still hate everyone how do i make it stop😂

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loopinh

im so board. free me from drawing only side profiles

random but harutaka........ i still think abt them

this one official anthology comic still makes me insane 

oh my god bruh... PRINCESS??? 😭😭😭takane knight in shining armor,.. haruka damsel in distress princess.. what was the author cooking. oh my god. theyre like the lebron james of het ships. 

song otd 2/19/26

Today's song of the day is 夜明けのMEW by kyonkyon! oh my god bruh i think im going insane. i remember hearing this song in a childhood movie i watched when i was like 5 and i really wanted to know the song name because i really liked how ominous the intro sounded but i couldnt find it anywhere. and now years later... im a kyonkyon fan and i decided to listen to another one of her albums and got hit with that same intro that i was obsessed with years ago. genuinely lost my mind. i was actually so surprised. ur telling me this whole time it was a kyonkyon song

ok but anyways. i did not expect the rest of the song to sound like that lmao. idk when i was a kid i thought the intro sounded kinda scary and mysterious but the rest of the song is kinda a generic kayo song. i do like the gomene part it has a tinge of sadness to it. 

daily thoughts 2/19/26

trying to recount some good highschool memories

bro my teachers wont stop telling the class that we only got 3-4 months of our entire highschool career left like woww.... ok....

i feel kinda sad cuz i dont really have any memories of highschool. i can really only think of a few:

• going on field trip with ma friend on my birthday
• sharing a very small umbrella with my friend under the rain
• doing origami with ma friend and sharing it w/ each other
• being comforted by my teacher
• just walking around and talking with ma friend during pe time 
• playing badminton with my friends during pe in freshman year
• studying at library with friend
• walking home from school everyday
• riding bus to school everyday

and idk if i can think of anymore but im going on another field trip tomorrow with one of my friends and i also have prom coming up ig. i barely remember freshman-junior year lmao. most of these happened during senior year. man what a good 4 years! 😂😂😂😂 well now that i think abt it ig i did have some good memories in highschool but other than that it was literally just going to school everyday and coming back 90% mid all the time and 10% absolutely miserable

middle school was so much more fun ngl even tho i was so insanely mentally ill and cringe and was basically crying all day idk i remember so much from middle school but not highschool.  i remember hanging out with my friends way more during middle school. and i remmber hanging out with my short-lived friend group and actually doing stuff outside school and visiting their homes and playing games. it was pretty fun ngl. but highschool dawg i barely did anything. also so much drama was happening during middle school. and i actually kinda was in like 2 friend groups. one kinda died but i stuck with the other friend group for a decent amount of time.

daily thoughts 2/18/26

SAN FRANCISCO!!!!!

tbh the only other city i would want to live in other than nyc in america is san francisco. omg its like they made nyc again but theres beaches and it looks quieter. i completely forgot san francisco even existed until i have this government assignment that i had to do where i get assigned a candidate and i have to research abt them.

bro i didnt know san francisco was so cool. i suck at geography. i only know what san francisco looks like from big hero 6 and inside out i didnt know it was real 

like omg this looks so good what. its like if nyc and california had a baby. if ny gets too expensive im moving to san francisco. i know san francisco is also expensive but it cant be as bad as nyc

finally doing some damn coding

i found a really good site for learning html and css its called freeCodeCamp and omg its actually helpful unlike those youtube videos that just go over the most basic stuff and never make another video

im so happy bro one of my biggest dreams is to make my own website i think im finally learning. i was always stuck on how to make columns and whatever div class=" " meant but i finally get it now oh my god. old internet im coming home.

i hate pants!!

not pants but i just hate long pants bro idk why i cant stand long pants at all i hate jeans and long leggings. but i love wearing shorts and short leggings. god pls make the warm weather come sooner. i wore a skirt to school today cuz it wasnt cold and omg ive never felt so free. i love wearing skirts and other short clothing. i just love the breeze in between my legs

speaking of fashion

i wish more ppl looked at magazines and other sources of fashion instead of just pinterest. i mean i use pinterest too but i also look up actual magazines of the time period that i want to dress authentically in. also i sound kinda pretentious saying this but i cant stand like "pinterest fashion" and "tiktok fashion" do yall know what i mean 😭

like this type of style. i mean i guess its not bad its not my style. like idk whenever i see the ppl at my school i think that they get all their fashion inspo from pinterest only. lmao i sound so pretentious. no hate to pinterest at all its like top 3 social media sites but some of the outfits on here look so commodified and unorignial. idk i wanna see more different styles other than the ones like that above. everyone is all 90s-2000s. where my 60s-80s ppl at 💔💔i miss when i used to be obsesssed with 1960s-1970s fashion they were all so gorgeous. im a lot more into showa idol fashion nowadays tho

this type of 1960s beatnik fashion worn by michelle phillips

brian jones serving cunt i used to be obsessed with this outfit
it looks so good 👽👽the coin headband 👀

same outfit but w/ jacket

this simplistic patterned shirt with colored sunglasses combo by donovan i love

and ts outfit by 60s/70s inspired fashionista @electricleona on instagram
theres a lot of good 60s/70s inspired fashion people on instagrams and also a lot of bad ones

also i really hate baggy clothing. bro i cant stand those big ass pants that a lot of people wear 💀ts what i mean when i say i hate pants

WE ARE CHARLIE KIRKKKKKKK WE CARRRYYYYYY THE FLAMEE

speaking of charlie kirk. bro im actually starting to feel bad for him now 💀but not really cuz its good that he died but thinking abt his fate is actually so funny. like wow literally not a single person in this entire world actually gaf abt him. and the people closest to him (i guess) only ever pretended to care. like his wife and his kids dont gaf abt him and were just faking tears 💀 

and his only lasting impacting are the charlie kirk memes bro im crine

i remember when u literally used to get arrested and expelled from school for making fun of this loser and now the tables turned 😭 everyone makes fun of him now on both sides of the political spectrum. it was genuinely so performative how ppl were like oh but he was a human too 🥺🥺 man shut up

i was one of the few brave ones who actually stood their ground and celebrated charlie kirks death the day it was announced. bro literally i was liking every single post that mocked his death and drew his assassination onto my friend's sketchbook the first day that he died💀

and literally like 2 days later in my government class my teacher was like guys a very sad event has happened recently. and i was literally trying so hard to hold in my laughter bro. BUT NOW bro some kid was singing we are charlie kirk in class like a week ago and my government teacher was smiling 😭😭like omg bro what happened 2 months ago. everyone is so spineless oh my god. why would u ever feel bad for charlie kirk. 

the only reason why i feel bad for kirk now is because his fate is so tragically stupid and hilarious. like how do u live a life so meaningless and worthless. i mean thats probably gonna be the fate of every conservative cuz conservatives are only bounded by hate and they dont actually care abt each other at all. 

everytime i feel a little bad for charlie kirk i remember when he said that empathy is a made up thing and i go back to singing we are charlie kirk again

song otd 2/15/26

Today's song of the day is I'll Have to Say I Love You in a Song by Jim Croce! since the weather is getting warmer i wanted to listen to this song. i remember really loving it when i was like 13 i think. god everything feels like sunshine and rainbows now that the weather is getting warmer. i love fluttery-sounding chord progressions like the ones in this song. feels like wind blowing the hot summer or spring. jim croce has such simple yet memorable melodies

daily thoughts 2/14/26

ok nvm i remembered what i wanted to say from last post

optimism is so grating sometimes. i cant stand it. when shit is not clearly okay, theyre still like its gonna be okay 😭💔 im not a pessimist at all but it just becomes annoying sometimes when ur going thru it and someone is like its gonnab okay. like okay. i know that 

its just really annoying its like the equivalent of when u cry as a child and ur parents just tell u to stop crying or when u have anxiety and ppl just tell u to talk more. its like hoping for the better without actually doing or helping anything

i feel like there should be something in between before things get better. like support. god i sure do love complaining abt everything. 

coming out is scary af 

no im not lgbt 💀lol but a long long time ago i really wanted to be a man for some reason. and i really wanted to talk to someone abt it so i texted one of my friends. i was really hesitant at first because idk but i eventually did tell her and she said i could be if i wanted to and tell me why i started crying for real bro. 

how do lgbtq+ people handle this omg

weather becoming warmer

omg bruh all days next week having a high of atleast 10 degrees oh my god bruh its finally coming its finally coming. im so fucking excited 👀👀👀👀👀👅👅👅

daily thoughts 2/13/26

random pet peeves

bru idk when but i sometimes cant stand it when ppl i text start copying the way i text. tbh this only applies to certain ppl idk why. it just irritates me. 90% of the time im fine tho but sometimes i just get mad for no reason 💀

manhwa recs

anyone got any manhwa recs for me. i might try reading one just because. no romance pls. i like stories that are quirked up

i have amnesia 💔

i had so many thoughts today but i just forgot all of them right now 😭i had so much to say abt something but i forgor 

 his ugly ass gacha life oc 💀💀💔💔💔

anyways

wait i cant believe my entire highschool life is ending in 4 months that was so mid bruh. 💀💀💀 4 years and i basically didnt do anything. got like 2 good memories and thats it 😭pls save me college i cant take this life anymore

daily thoughts 2/11/26

holy anj reference from panty and stocking

can someone give me art requests pls ill draw anything i promise

daily thoughts 2/8/26

super dumb thought

ok i was playing that would u rather game on roblox (pick a side) and the question was would u rather slap a 7 year old or a 77 year old. and i was the only one who picked 77 year old and it lowkey made me mad bruh. 💀

like really u would rather slap an innocent 7 year old than a 77 year old. 

a 7 year old whos biggest crime was spilling orange juice on the floor vs a 77 year old who probably said a slur before and only cares abt themselves. 

ik its just a roblox game but it makes me think that nobody gaf abt kids 😭 like why would u care more abt some 77 year old than a 7 year old are u srs

i hate old people so much now. recently cuz of everything. they would really still vote for the party that is running society into the ground. i wish they would just die already genuinely. 

daily thoughts 2/8/26

i love/hate gaining new obsessions bro 😭

the kagepro brainworms are getting to me bro i didnt do anything today except play piano for like 10 minutes, do math hw for 20 minutes, and look at ancient kagepro fanarts from 2013. 

omg bruh the first few weeks of a new interest is crazy. i cant do anything at all except think abt kagepro. it pains me that so many new vocaloid fans dont gaf abt kagepro. like kagepro was the vocaloid bible back in like 2013-2015 but now the fandom is dead so i gotta look through years old tumblr blogs just to find content of kagepro. 

i pray for a kagepro renaissance in 2026 

and no i didnt lose interest in homestuck and ymo because of kagepro. i still listen to ymo/ryuichi daily bro. i listened to cosmic surfin and end of asia like 10 mins ago. 

song otd 2/8/26

bro ive been doing nothing but listening to kagepro songs on repeat for like the past few days. the brainrot is real. anyways this is the most beautiful kagepro song of all time bro. 🥹🥹🥹 Today's song of the day is Summertime Record from Kagepro!

i remember seeing someone say that haruka represents the kagepro fandom where he was stuck in the kagerou daze so he couldnt be with the mekakushi dan but he can still view their experiences and relationships with eachother from where hes stuck in. which still makes him feel connected to everyone despite not being there to actually experience it. 

and at the end he finally gets his body back and draws all the places where the mekakushi dan spent their precious memories together 🥹 a metaphor for the kagepro fandom drawing fanart, feeling connected to the characters, and loving the series all together 🥹heartwarming

i actually love kagepro a lot. so much. i cant believe i left this series unattended for like 10 years. all my old interests are coming back. i love being in love with a series and its characters. something so charming abt niche indie internet projects. kagepro was like my homestuck/alien stage/omori. they were not lying when they said that specific interest u got into when u were a kid will stick with u forever

i have such good memories of kagepro. i was like 10 i think or maybe 9 when i first encountered it. and i was like woahh so cool. its like vocaloid but like it has actual lore and characters!! :o  and they all look so cool!!11  and then i got really into the whole story and everything. they were my everything bro. and i got into it during the best time of my childhood when i was living in korea during the hot summer. it brings back so much nostalgic memories. i love summer. this is why summer is the best season of all time forever.

i love my things

an artwork i did for school but i like it so ill post it here. ts shit did not turn out the way i wanted it to 💀but i still like it. good enough. feel like it could use way more black shadows what yall think

daily thoughts 2/7/26

I HATE WINTER!!!

istg only psychopaths actually have winter as their favorite season bro like aint no way. when will all this snow disappear bro im so tired. i have to walk to school on the frozen ground so it keeps making me slip. 💀

i cant wait for spring summer and fall bro. i love all those seasons but winter is absolute hell bro literally whats good abt depressing winter. 

unrelated kinda but i have a good memory of autumn where it was the transitional period between late-autumn and almost winter and i got to step barefoot in the grass because there were genuinely 0 bugs around and it felt so good bro. 

asap riot

drawing for ma friend who wanted his roblox avatar redrawn in asap rocky's live love asap album. why did i lowkey go so hard on this. finally starting to get my creative flow going again

ayano woosh

quick ayano tateyama kagepro mekakucity actors yuukei quartet mekakushi dan no. 0 hair blowing in the wind animation. i actually really like this one. it looks like it was made by a tumblr artist in 2014

giving up on blender and picking up animation again 💔

i made her head too big but im too lazy to change it 💔

daily thoughts

people with mental disorders and shame/hatred

too often i see so many ppl with mental disorders that cope with their condition by shaming themselves and hating on others. 

like ppl like these:

their reply under the og tweet. its interesting how the way they speak didnt
even get them to clean up their room so it didnt really help but they think that it did

i hate psychoanalyzing people and ppl who psychoanalyze others bcuz u will never truly know what someone is really like/what theyre thinking abt. BUT let me just do it this one time

im not saying theyre wrong or right but i see so many ppl like this. im like this too im ngl. i dont have depression but i just hate a lot of things abt my life and i have other problems that are not depression 😭and this is how i cope too. 

its so weird how i both love and hate other people that are like me. i always intrinsically feel empathetic towards other ppl that behave like me because ive been there too but then i also absolutely hate them because they remind me of myself. 

when i hear about all the horrors in the world, i feel like crying which shows that i have empathy towards others and strangers. but whenever i actually get close to someone, i just lose all my empathy 💀the phrase familiarity breeds contempt is something that i can relate to too much cuz it happens everytime 😭i feel sad whenever i see a stranger being sad but then i cant even do the simplest good deed for my friend. im so sick bruh. im so terribly complicated

yknow relating back to the last post i made abt friendship i think i was raised with enough decency and empathy towards strangers but not being able to form good long-lasting friendships just damaged something in my brain. well not damaged just never developed. or i got some personality disorder from my mom cuz my mom acts a lot like me too.

it sucks dealing with low self esteem. genuinely how do u help urself. relating back to that tweet i posted, i also feel like i should just suck it up and do shit by myself but that really isnt helping me with my self esteem. i cant seem to gain any compassion for myself. living with low self esteem is crazy bro i genuinely believe that im going to have to live with this forever. because getting rid of it might be the hardest thing to ever do. 

unrelated and unserious but i would go so hard if i was a fictional character. im soo... multifaceted. 

i hate the word easy

easy has got to be one of my least favorite words of all time. and yes its cuz of my low self esteem. i cant stand it whenever ppl say something is easy while i struggle to even comprehend it. like no making friends is not easy. studying is not easy. analyzing is not easy. learning music theory is not easy. being kind is not easy. its hard like SHUT UP!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭

i really should stop comparing myself to others but idk how. ive actually been trying not to but i still do it without even thinking 💀 i genuinely hate people who can just be content and happy learning on their own and not compare themselves to others

since everyone copes and improves themselves in different ways. bro i genuinely think the only thing that can change me is watching/reading a piece of a fiction so life altering it actually inspires me to better myself. i mean thats basically what ashita no joe did to me. but i need another one thats about not comparing urself to others 💀 the best medicine is not laughter, its art actually. i cant believe watching anime and reading manga is the only thing that can fix me

daily thoughts 2/4/26

truth nuke

this tweet is frying me bruh. but its true yall dont get it. asian americans are truly so stem brained and they love their ai more than anything else. living chatgpt humans is crazy 💀 i need to start putting that phrase in my regular lexicon

who up thinking abt them

aw aw aw

actual hetdiamond for real

also random but i really love haruka's voice like that is exactly how i imagined him to sound like. like yes that is haruka kokonose. mamoru miyano cooked so hard. i can see why so many ppl glaze him now.

daily thoughts 2/3/26

did this again

i stole this from jp twt thats basically just ur favs chart. these things are so fun to do

random

btw yall whos ur guys fav from mane 6 mlp. i actually thought hard abt this and i think its twilight tbh. idk why but i always liked her. i love all of mane 6 so it was hard to do. but twilight idk i relate the most to her personality. and i love her awkwardness but not like shy-type of awkwardness more like shes so aloof. also i feel like im one of the only people who actually liked that she became an alicorn

mane 6 ranking for fun:

1. twilight

2. rarity

3. applejack

4. fluttershy

5. rainbow dash

6. pinkie pie

idgaf abt pinkie pie tbh she annoying af shes the only one out of mane 6 that i lowkey dislike. yknow my favs when i was a kid were rainbow dash and fluttershy lol. but now theyre at the bottom. feel like ive grown to like mature characters now. i still like rainbow dash but she lowkey annoying a lot of the times actually. i love rarity now tho when i used to not care abt her shes so... generous... haha

why are they lowkey the same character. do yall think fujimoto was a kagepro fan too. cuz theyre really similar nglll. like kyomoto got the birthmark and same sketchbook and everything (ik the maruman zuan sketchbook is popular in japan but still) theyre both like "special" kids at school. and they both like to draw and they both really admire their one singular friend. and they both lowkey die in a tragic way despite having big hopes and dreams. and their soulmate has to deal with grief and regret forever. 

daily thoughts 2/2/26

having "those" thoughts again

i dont really mourn my teenagehood at all like maybe 10% but i lowkey dgaf. but something i do mourn is how it basically ruined me to function normally. like i have a very skewed view on relationships. i do like my friends but sometimes i just be hating on them for no reason 💀 and i genuinely dont know why 😭

idk maybe i still have the lowest self esteem possible and i truly cant believe people actually like me and enjoy hanging around me so i start to hate them because i think theyre faking?? 💀something inside me just wont let me be normal. maybe i wish for too much idk. cuz i do like my friends but we dont do anything outside of school and barely ever text. maybe this is normal and i just watch too much fiction to start thinking of life as a movie where u and ur best friends do everything together when it isnt.

im an introvert but i truly hate being alone 😭and i dont mean loneliness alone i mean like alone alone i hate being by myself all the time but i also hate being around others who i cant connect with 💀

also bro my friends dont ever tell me anything bro 😭😭like i show them everything like my art, comics, my grades, my assignments but they dont 💀 like i have c's and b's that i proudly show to my friend but she wont show me hers like girl is it really that serious. and i also tsalk abt my problems and my feelings to my friends and they dont really know how to respond and thats fine honestly. i just wish they would do the same to me so i dont feel like im yknow like burdening them. i wish i could have a friend where we werent afraid to be truthful, genuine, and serious when we have to be. bro all my friendships are so irony poisoned. maybe they dont talk to me cuz im terrible at comforting ppl or being nice IDK my friends wont tell me stuff so IDK 😭i hope im someone good to talk to 💀sometimes i wonder if my friends really see me as a friend or just someone to crack jokes with (which i enjoy dont get me wrong but like i said i wish for too much i think). or maybe theyre all doing mentally well and im the mentally sick one so they dont have any problems to tell IDKK. KMS

having no friends as a kid truly messes u up bro. well... i did have atleast 1 friend every year so like idk why im like this. i still dont really understand the concept of friendship like idk how to define it. but ig im still learning abt it. 

and man ive been having the worst existential dread since the #news hit and the #files released. i genuinely cant believe how cartoonishly evil such few people in this world are. genuinely got sick to my stomach hearing the things our government officials and world leaders are committing. i couldnt sleep for like 2 days and i even felt like crying. i feel so bad for all the children who got victimized. i genuinely hope every conservative dies for real. i dont care anymore. and i cant believe so few ppl are talking abt this too like how can u be normal after reading all this.

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