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daily thoughts 3/28/26

ryuichi sakamoto death anniversary 😊😊😊

wdym its already been 3 years since he passed....,,l..,l,l.

i remember when i heard the news i wasnt a ryuichi fan back then but i kinda knew somewhat about him. like very surface level stuff like oh hes the merry christmas mr lawrence guy. 

and i remember how everyone was grieving so desperately. and ppl talking abt how much of a legacy hes gonna leave behind. bro i shouldve been like that too. 

god i miss him so much actually. he made me feel so much more confident in art. and just made me want to love the world. 

why so sassy gramps

miss you so much 💔💔💔💔thank you for literally everything

karaoke iko

read this really good manga last night called karaoke iko. it was really good. it was good guys. 

i checked it out cuz everyone i know is obsessed with it for some reason and its really good guys i swear. 

its abt this middle school boy named satomi oka and hes the lead of the school choir and this yakuza guy named kyouji narita comes up and asks him to teach him how to sing because his yazuka boss holds a singing competition every year and the loser gets a punishment 

idk what else to say abt it tbh besides the fact that i had a good time with it. i actually kinda laughed reading it. it was funnies. and idk everything just flowed so naturally. the relationship between satomi and kyouji was fun. and by natural i mean i dont really know how to explain it like nothing felt forced and the pacing was good. its only 2 chapters and i felt complete at the end. and also i loved the art. that 2 chapter manga can truly change ur life. its always the short media that inspires me the most.

😭😭😭😭😭

also i wanna get into more of this author's stuff (their name is wayama :3). everyone i know is also obsessed with onna no sono no hoshi which is another manga by them. i heard its really funny ans good. i cant wait

i need to know more abt them
the yuri....
the girl on the left looks kindas like me
i feel spiritually connected to her

song otd 3/26/26

Today's song of the day is APRIL STARS by Akina Nakamori! boi im listening to all my favs again. my showa idol phase is so back everyone. been listening to akina and julie so much im gong insane. i forgor how good this album is. nothing extraordinary but its just full of bangers. also a very good deviation from her previous albums where it was just pretty much standard orthodox idol songs. 

song otd 3/23/26

Today's song of the day is Angel Baby by Jun Togawa! yes i love songs with a 1950s ballad type guitar chord progression. 

i usually hate it when ppl call random 50s songs creepy but this one gets a pass. jun togawa was trying to be deliberately creepy here with her discordant vocals and it works kinda. very overdone cliche where ppl use a 1950s song to be creepy. but this one gets a pass because i love the way she sings here

daily thoughts 3/23/26

lamenting...

bro my old art was genuinely so much better than what it is currently rn... like look at this

god this doodle is so good 
i captured her energy so well and i have confident lines

more just random doodle but look at this
i had such a good artstyle what happened

i feel like my anatomy was so much better and more experimental
dawg what the hell actually happened 💔

NEED TO BRING THESE 2 BACK OMG
i need to come up with a story for these 2

im gonna try and draw again and not  be a lazy bum bro i swear. i want to come up with a story for pony and michael but idk what. something abt siblinghood probably. living on a barn or smthn. i should write more short stories bro i swear

ryo

20260322

 

very short snippet of me playing deltarune's my castle town.

this piece wouldve been so much easier to play and also sound better with the pedal but mine broke so

daily thoughts 3/22/26

unironically love this type of hair style so much

i swear i had more examples but i cant find them rn 💔 but like this hairstyle is so good #lowk 

i kinda picked a bad example tbh julie looks dumb here

ITS NOT A BOWL CUT!!!!!!!!!! 

its not even close to a bowlcut 💔 tbh idk what its actually called (maybe a moptop??) but like this 1960s coconut hairstyle i love it so much. i lowkey want to have it myself  but i feel like it only fits a certain face

daily thoughts 3/20/26

fetishes

this is so random and weird but is anyone else fascinated abt fetishes like i luckily dont have any myself but man some ppl really just have the most weirdest fetishes ever. 

it just fascinates me cuz it really just happens at random and u can develop a fetish for basically anything 😭im just so interested on how some ppl can get turned on by some things. like bro how. 

also does anyone else fear that theyre gonna gain some weird fetish randomly. cuz it happens on random and it genuinely terrifies me. i know theres nothing wrong with having non-harmful fetishes but still i dont want to have one 💀this is an intrusive thought i have 

this album sucks: 

grades

bro i genuinely do so much better academically when i dont have to worry abt grades. cuz everytime its seminar/homeroom time i go to my english class to do practice papers and study and its unironically engaging. like i actually lock in for once. its funny cuz when its actual exam time i literally blank out so fast. 

like its way more fun when i dont have to worry abt the impending doom of grades. i actually feel more inclined to do my work cuz i dont have to worry abt failure. and this is why we need to nuke the american school system

ik others arent like me tho. like i wish everyone was just naturally into the arts and not just doing stuff to get a job / become financially stable / literally the only reason they go to college is to find a job and not to gain knowledge and study. 

and most kids if grades didnt exist, would not want to learn anything

daily thoughts 3/19/26

i love making websites

https://otamotsauce.neocities.org/   didnt really update much besides changing the scrollbar... but still. also dont know if its updated yet cuz the scrollbar thing takes a while to load. but the about me page did upload

omg bro making websites is genuinely the most fun thing ever brah. its so fun i wish i learned it sooner. cuz imagine if i had a school project and ppl had to make a slideshow or something and i pull up with an entire custom-made website. i wouldve been so cool. 

i want to make websites on random things now. but god everything costs money

also my website is taking so long to make cuz i need to come up with ideas on how i want it to look like

also i cannot figure out for the life of me why the youtube embed doesnt work bro i literally tried everything and it works on other ppls sites but not mine 💀

jazmine 18th bday

my friends birthday passed so i can finally post this bro i actually cooked on this

song otd 3/17/26

Today's song of the day is Lipslap by Kero Kero Bonito! holy moly bro. i never knew kkb was like genuinely actually good. i only know them from that flamingo song which i found annoying. bro this album is so good im ngl. it just so 2016 coded. 2016 happiness and warm summer/spring weather. this album is just full of the most catchiest songs ever. i love it

daily thoughts 3/16/26

bpd

bro i swear on my soul i have bpd or something cuz i just saw a tweet that i kinda relate to

im not really like this (kinda) its more like i get insanely jealous when my friends have more friends than me. cuz it was my friend's birthday the other day and she went to prom and the beach with her friends and i lowkey wanted to kill myself. i know im a bad person for saying that but i just i cant control my emotions at all. 

but anyways back to the og tweet, im kinda like this but like not really cuz i already tell myself that nobody thinks im important enough 

on my soul i have bpd bro 💔💔i have way too many similarities with other bpd havers. especially the feeling extremely close and in love with ur friends but then suddenly hating them for a certain reason

crazy how god created the i hate my fucking friends and i wished they all died sometimes disorder 😭

daily thoughts 3/15/26

suddenly missing ymo / ryuichi

feel like ive been neglecting them lately cuz of my showa idol phase comig back. but its ok i listened to one of their new live albums today + firecracker on repeat. were so back. i missed them so much. truly. once u listen to ymo theres no going back. once u get into ymo u will never hear greater music again im so serious. greatest band of all time. and so many others will agree with me. i genuinely never seen a ymo hater before

i also miss ryuichi sakamoto so much today. like physically. i wish he was still on this planet. miss you grandpa :(

i hate people!!! 😭😭😭😭

i swear i cant stand anyone irl. especially at school bro. i feel like im in a prison having to share the same world as these people. this is my most teenage-core post yet but idc!!! i cant stand ppl i swear bro. 

theyre all the same 😭😭dress the same, look the same, only watches shows and movies on netflix, doesnt have any prospects other than getting a financially stable job, uses chatgpt, doesnt care abt anything but grades and getting service hours i swear these people are made in a factory bro. theyre all so boring and uninteresting i cant stand it 😭

also im gonna sound like a corny teenager here but i wish i had a special kind of friendship (dont know how to define it) yes i promise i love my friends irl. but i wish i had a friendship where we both actually match each other idk. i feel so out of place in my irl friendships. i dont think any of my friends consider me their best friend 💀barely a footnote. and i just know everyones gonna forget abt me after graduation 😭

like an ideal friendship for me is one where we text eachother often and have similar interests or atleast offer to listen to each others interests, is happy to do stuff with me and actually goes out of their way to hang out with me even when they dont want to, unserious but serious when it needs to be, have relatability, have deep convos, lowkey kinda gay, and also we dont live 500000 miles apart 

is this too much for hopes and dreams

daily thoughts 3/14/26

check out my website i updated it guys: https://otamotsauce.neocities.org/

niche interests

oh ym god bruh i cant stand it when people mention niche interests and its something like ddlc and hetalia like bro those two fandoms are huge 😭😭😭 my interest is so niche the only people who i have to discuss it with is one person on tumblr and like 2 70 year old japanese grandmas.

i feel like niche interests should be categorized into spiritually niche and inherently niche:

cuz i feel like stuff like hetalia and homestuck should be spiritually niche where its a very unique piece of media that appeals to only a specific demographic but still has a very big cult following

while inherently niche stuff is like  stuff that genuinely has like no fandom at all. LIKE MY INTEREST. FOUR LEAVES. its so sad how showa idol fans on the internet only discuss the 80s era and not the 60s-70s era sigh... 

song otd 3/14/26

Today's song of the day is ballet by YMO!!!!!!!!! didnt post a ymo song in a while so let me change that. why is this song kinda soudn like gorillaz.... especially the chorus part. the muffled singing part. 

also kinda unrelated/related but yukihiro takahashi's singing voice is so cute. i like how he slurs his words 

finished homestuck

FINALLY FINISHED HOMESTUCK

after exactly 6 months.,,, i finished homestuck. i started on 9/11/25 and finished on 3/11/26 yesterday. what an incredible journey. it genuinely should not have taken me this long but whatever.

homestuck truly is one of the most life-altering pieces of media im ngl. the way it utilizes its multi-media aspect is so phenomenal. and the fact that it is multi-media actually does play into the narrative itself with actual plot-based devices like the retcon. its genuinely such an intriguing story. i can see why it got so popular during 2009-2016. 

its themes of rejecting fate and social norms are done in a really unique way imo. like even in parts of the story where it seems like its not actually serious plays into these themes and even the stupidest smallest things can stand as symbolism for something. and it actually works lowkey. i usually hate un-seriousness and irony during important parts of the story but homestuck just somehow works. its the most irony-poisoned story ever and it works every single time. like that homosuck section also talks about rejecting fate and social norms. 

homestuck also has a lot to do with stuff like fandom culture / being chronically online so i think i was drawn to it by that. like the characters speak through texting like 60% of the time. and i think that was a great choice because wow homestuck genuinely has some of the best character voices ever. like the way the characters speak and type makes such strong characterization. ex: dave speaking in all lowercase no punctuation > makes him sound/look very monotone and irony-poisoned which he is. the characters feel so real. like these are true chronically online teenagers. 

but not only that, homestuck genuinely has some great prose im ngl is it bad that i learned some new words that ive never heard of b4 thru homestuck 😭 one of my favorite examples of great homestuck prose is the ending towards act 4 where every single sentence is very short, very concise 1-2 sentences with the same structure but with different words. it was very effective especially since the pictures showed most of the story (great way of showing not telling)

so yeah homestuck is freaking awesome. but yeah i hav some problems. some parts were genuinely so confusing bro i swear. i still dont fully understand how sburb works (kinda?? i guess) also some parts were genuinely so boring and such a chore to get through. (especially the alterniabound game sections bro holyyy) i think it took me like 2 weeks to get thru the alterniabound sections. theyre somehow both my favorite and least favorite parts of homestuck. (because wow cool rpg game in a webcomic!? thats awesome but it was so long) i think it wouldve been better if they didnt unnecessarily add so many characters that play literally 0 part in the story. like bro idgaf abt any of these dancestors!!! 😭😭 their designs are cool but their characters are all so one-note like

and also the first part of act 6 was gen so boring bro like i hated the alpha kids at first but they really did grow on me but also omg act 6 beginning was so boring. some days i just didnt feel like reading cuz omg it was such a chore during some parts.

i think i have a few more gripes with homestuck but thats kinda the most i have rn also this thing is getting long. anyways homestuck is life-changing god bless homestuckia. i love you beta kids and beta trolls. alpha kids and alpha trolls yall too ig. acts 1-5 were peak fiction. act 6 beginning kys. act 6-credits (almost) peak fiction

daily thoughts 3/10/26

back on my showa idol bullshit bro oh my god

i told yall that my showa idol obsession would come back someday and its starting to come back to me cuz i just recently discovered someone on tumblr thats also a four leaves fan and started talking to them bro. this is actually big news ive literally never seen another eng-speaking four leaves fan before holy shit. i genuinely got so excited bro my showa idol phase was kinda faded but they were always a big interest of mine and still is and its come back full force

oh my god... FOUR LEAVES 😭😭 I LOVE 4LEAVES. I LOVE SHONENTAI. I LOVE SHIN GOSANKE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love showa idols.... 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

check out my website rn >> https://otamotsauce.neocities.org/

also i never realized how fucking terrible neocities is for coding bro. like what the hell is this. its genuinely so slow bro to update. and also u only have 1 gb of data so u gotta pay more to code more and they dont even show u a preview before u update ur site so u just gotta keep wasting ur data man fuck this site

daily thoughts 3/8/26

website prog

can proudly say its going very well. omg my dreams are finally coming true. im making a comeback. i love you old internet!!! cant wait to make my shrines omg.

i hate trends!!!

i genuinely hate trends so much. i always never like them. and most of the time its the most mediocre shit ever. 

i hate especially if its something like labubu / or something plastic related. like i swear half the ppl that like those things dont actually like it. they just wanna follow the trend. and then after a year or something they get rid of it. like wow good job ruining the environment just to follow a dumbass trend

another pet peeve of mine

is when somebody asks how they get into an artist/band like tf u mean how 😭😭just listen to them?? i never understood why ppl make those like graphs where they tell u how to get into a band. like for me i usually listen to an artist's most popular album first and 7 times out of 10 i enjoy it because im easily pleased then i either listen to their 2nd most popular or their 1st album and then make my way through their discog chronologically. 

and if i really really like them, then i start doing research just for fun or look for other fans online and gather lore and knowledge abt them. like its really not that hard. so i dont understand why ppl ask how to get into a band/artist 💀

website in prog

finally getting around to building my own website and i can say it has been torture but also very fun 

son 😭😭😭

i feel like ive been indulging in my hobbies a lot lately. like im learning coding. im drawing way more than i used to and i actually draw daily now without needing to force myself. i have ideas. i also want to start writing again. and im developing (kinda) a story rn. also i started doing jazz improv on the piano and playing it more. been reading more. its so back everyone. i genuinely havent been this artistically productive in years.

and i actually sorta got dedicated to studying again. my grades are back up. and i go to my eng teacher to help me study for the exam. wtf why would i ever study. am i really starting to become productive again? idk whats happening. is it because i got into kagepro again. were so back minna san

random

also ive been thinking abt how much random japanese words /phrases i know or just inherently know from seeing someone speak japanese just cuz i consumed so much japanese media in my life. i think ive been engaging with japanese media since i was like 8 years old and i just learned some random things abt japanese language/culture/history along the way.

i even know some japanese words that my friend literally taking level 4 japanese at school doesnt even know. or maybe shes just dumb lol (JOKING). im a true weeb at heart. 

song otd 3/7/26

today's song otd is konoha from the mekakucity actors anime!!! BROO ive been looking for this track for so long and i finally found it. this really takes me back to 2017-2018. its so nostalgic oh my god. it feels like a dream. one of my favs from the soundtrack. especially the intro sounds so nostalgic. and i love the glitch effects added into it. 

no.32(12/5/25): canine

daily thoughts 3/6/26

stranger things "vibes"

idgaf abt stranger things anymore at all (i didnt even finish s4 and didnt watch a single episode of s5) but i still think s1 is so good bruh. not just the writing and the tone but the whole aesthetic in general

i love any piece of media where the setting is a small town haunted by mysteries (bonus points if it takes place in like the 70s-90s). i cant find any screencaps from s1 but i still remember it. everything was so brown and autumn. and i love that type of atmosphere so much. lots of trees and woods idk everything felt so calm and mysterious. 

dreams

i love dreams so much bro theyre some of the greatest things abt being alive im ngl. i had so many fun, horrifying, exciting, colorful, scary dreams. im going to do an art challenge thing where i draw what i saw from my dreams.

angel apart of city

lowkey really proud of this ngl. bro i worked on this so hard. i literally started the sketch today and finished today. its for my art class. i really really like this. but something feels a little off. maybe its the lack of contrast between the buildings. like more shadows needed idk what yall think.

tbh i just really wanted to draw a city ngl 💀💀very much inspired by akira

alt morning ver cuz i love cities in the morning too

ayataka

kagebrossssssss

ayataka if u look really hard #ayataka #yuri

LE CERISIER DANS LA COUR

new indie animation has hit the towers. this artist already has a lot of animations on their channel but i never saw any of them except for this one. i really like this one. i like how its just a parody of showa era anime and literally nothing else. the character animation is great. i need to check out this artist's other work oh my goudd

song otd 3/3/26

Today's song of the day is 悲しくてやりきれない (I FEEL SO SAD AND HOPELESS 😭😭😭) by Akiko Yano! i loveee this song so much bro. i found out its a cover of a folk crusaders song but still it slaps so hard. it feels so melancholy and sounds like ur longing for the past. every beat sounds like a clock ticking. time floating by. and the day is already ending with a sunset. its so quiet and simple. and the little instrumental chorus sections after every verse feels like a different memory. at 1:05 with the guitar solo. wailing but softly. and again at 1:55 but with an added synth this time. my fav part bro omg its so good. the synth sounds so dramatic. like all ur emotions are trying to pierce through you.  and the last instrumental section at 3:00. it sounds like a hum. it sounds so tired. 

been so obsessed with this song idk i love quiet songs like these. its like a sunset in musical form

daily thoughts 3/2/26

infinity train

lowkey miss infinity train so bad bruh im ngl. it was genuinely such a good cartoon that was more teen-oriented than kids. it did so much more in 10 episodes that are 10 mins each in every season than like most cartoons. it was actually so peak and goated. i loved the characters and their personalities so much. infinity train come back. i still cant believe cartoon network cancelled this show man. it was actually really popular so idk why. the 2 best cartoons ever are steven universe and infinity train actually just cuz they both reference ymo

families

i swear bro. i have a story to tell. today at school my friend was talking abt her course selections next year and asked me for help to pick. and she said that her parents want her to take more ap classes so she thinking abt ap lang and ap history. right

so i told her not to take ap lang cuz its hard and shes only in normal english rn. but she kept saying how her parents want her to take more ap classes. and i just kept telling her to not do it. dont take ap lang. but she kept talking abt her PARENTS

like oh my god bruh ik its hard but someday ur going to have to rebel against ur parents. like course selections arent even that serious. bro. but shes so. shes such a goody two shoes man just dont take ap lang bruh 😭 i told her its gonna tank her gpa so bad and she wont pass the exam and also she wont get scholarships and its gonna look bad on her transcript. but still shes like my parents!!!11

like its just crazy to me. how some people love their family this much 😭 like dawg.... put ur own self first sometimes. not saying to completely ditch ur family and misbehave but like bro stuff like this where its gonna harm urself. just rebel bro. 

and like i used to be scared of my parents too sometimes. but now i just dgaf. i used to be scared abt clothes shopping and stuffs and my hair. cuz they would sometimes make fun of the way i dress but i lwokey dont care anymore bruh. and sometimes they force me to do things that i dont want to do and yeah i just do it but i do argue alot with my parents ngl

speaking of families

i had a dream abt families last night. 

i was in this family of like 20+ people and we were all having dinner with like aunts, cousins, uncles, gramps, etc. and like the main boss of the family was the mom. and i was just a child in the family. and the mom had a chronic deadly illness and we were all discussing it at the dinner table. and we all ate, and drank and laughed and discussed abt her illness and how much we were going to miss her and the uncles started crying. and then i started crying too (in the dream not irl) and in the dream i was thinking like so this is what a real family is like

help me brah where do gore artists get their references. i have a fire drawing idea in my mind inspired from a dream i have but i need to reference gore. do i just straight up search gore i dont wanna do that. im so squeamish and can barely handle even the tamest gore bruh what do i do. 

song otd 3/1/26

Today's song of the day is やめるわけにゃいかないわ by Akiko Yano! ive been listening to so much akiko yano lately. i forgot her discog is pure kino gem diamond. this one is so catchy. i love jazz-like songs with that syncopated pattern on the piano. and that bass is so funky. and that little woop woop woop (idk how to describe it 💀) synth sound is so small but adds so much. im always surprised by songs that use only a few instruments but sound so good. learning abt music makes me wanna kms because im so bad at it. like this is such a simple song how does she make it so good