galaxy cat

her name is nyan cat i think. this is my roblox avatar.

song otd 4/28/26

Today's song of the day is Able Sisters from animal crossing game yeay. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭BRO u guys genuinely wont believe how long ive tried to find this song. i have been hearing this song since 2014 and ive tried so hard to find it. and i finally found it 12 years later. ive been hearing this in every single youtube video ever. bro i thought this song was from like a 2000s anime so i kept searching up 2000s anime bgm song french accordion 😭thought it was from lucky star no its from animal crossing

song otd 4/26/26

Today's song of the day is Ichigoichie from Kare Kano! dudeee this song,,, makes me feel so nostalgic. kare kano in general makes me feel so nostalgic. idk why but everytime i watch a slice of life asian media i feel so nostalgic. i think its cuz of the setting. i miss the korean streets and scenery. 

i love the crescendoing part at 0:55 so much. it feels like an escalation of emotions until it reaches its apogee.

kare kano is so good brou oh my goud,,, the only problem i have is the dialogue. is sometimes very monologue-y. a lot of telling and not showing. especially for the emotional moments. all the characters just have an extremely long monologue explaining all their problems and it just feels kinda lame. 

but other than that kare kano is so good. it avoids a lot of cliches. and the characters are all so real. 

but its lowkey been going downhill since like episode 14. bruh ep 14 has 0 dialogue or anything new. its just a recap episode. and the art has also been downgrading cuz they just keep using real photos instead of drawings.

genuinely one of my favorite videos of all time

daily thoughts 4/24/26

lowkey wish my parents werent religious 💔 

bro i swear on my soul if my parents werent religious then they would genuinely be 10/10 parents oh my god bruh religion ruins EVERYTHING i swear. 

i remember when i went to a college tour with my parents and it was an art school and yknow art school is full of gay people so i was worried they were going to say something but they didnt actually

there was this guy with like idk piercings and like crazy hair idk and my mom complimented them and said that she liked his hair. 

and my parents even bought coffee and bread for the tour guides when it was all finished. like they didnt say anything bad at all.

but then they would still say that they hate every single queer person like what 😭😭😭i dont understand conservatives bro like they can have a normal conversation with anyone but then still hate them at the same time even tho were all human beings like ok

genuinely i just know my mom was destined to be a fun progressive lib mom but she got cursed with post-korean war american christianity. like mom pls u still have time to fix ur ways

my dad is idk. hes like every median voter. slightly leaning progressive

shin gosanke ^_^

shin gosanke fanart bro idgaf anymore. hideki was so hard to draw 💔

jump girl jump

jumping girl animation idk bro i need to put up character size guidelines next time i just keep winging everything

daily thoughts 4/17/26

new song chat is ts peak or mid. its a piece i made originally on piano and i tried to do it on beepbox. i kinda liek this. it sounds like something from survive the disasters roblox

also this one. i think making music is becoming easier now like idk. i think im getting a better hang of sound. like this sounds like that and stuff. what type of tone and feeling. and also double melodies. and filling in the silent gaps with sound. and also knowing what instruments to use. music production is so hard

the internet

bro i swear every single person that interacted with the internet just turned into a worse person like why. cuz it was the complete opposite for me. 

like before i was on the internet i did have some bigoted thoughts (thoughts, never said out loud but still thats pretty bad) but then i went on the internet and realized that everyone is just a normal human being. 

but everyone but me either gets groomed or radicalized into a nazi and its like why 😭😭what part of the internet are yall going into. like ive been on the internet since i was 8 years old and ts type of stuff never happened to me. i just played roblox and watched youtube videos. 

writing

i really wanna be one of those multitalented artists where they can draw, make music, make websites, write, 3d model all at the same time. but i lowkey suck at all those. but im ok with being bad for a long time now. i used to just give up cuz i was obsessed with instant gratification and had low self-esteem but now im content. 

but anyways oh my god bro out of all of these writing is the one i struggle with the most. i wanna make a comic but i just cant. bro i cant.

i think its cuz i overthink way too much on how to structure a story from beginning to end instead of just writing it. i asked my friend for help/advice on how to write and she told me this. that i overthink way too much.

one of my biggest problems with writing i think is that i think of the theme first when beginning the story yknow instead of just letting the story unfold itself and tell the theme as it insists. i told my friend abt this and she said she doesnt think abt the theme in the beginning, she just starts writing spontanenously. broo i swear this is my biggest problem. 

daily thoughts 4/15/26

reading 17776

alongside the poe clan, im also reading 17776. 

17776 is also a webcomic like homestuck and ive heard lots of good things abt it and frequently dubbed the greatest webcomic of all time so i hope its good chat.

rn i only read like 2 chapters so like idk. but i can see how it will play out kinda.

17776 takes years in the future in the year 17776 wow.   and its abt these 3 characters....,,, who are not humans but space probes but they became sentient because of all the radio wave transfusions from years ago of humanity and culture. so they gained human knowledge. and they kinda just do nothing in space except watch and discuss football because there is nothing to do anymore. 

i think im gonna like it alot. i love sci fi stories like this bro u dont get it. ones where its like where nothing exists and everything is so peaceful. especially if the characters are like nonhumans. and they just sit around and do nothing forever. peacefully. kinda like the ending of houseki no kuni yknow.

love love lovee stories and settings like these

some recent arts

very chopped up lip sync animation
atleast i got decent solid drawings
shes supposed to be saying "want a pizza" 💀

random nurse oc

daily thoughts 4/13/26

forget how so many ppl actually like my art

broo my school just had the art show gallery thing where u can exhibit ur art and so many ppl said that they liked mine.

there was this one guy in my class who said my art was his fav and he said im a genius 😭😭like ty broo. and my friend said when her class was going through the gallery many ppl talked abt my art and said that they liked it the best. 

and whenever we do art shares in class, ppl always comment alot on my art. it makes me so happy bro 💞💞

also did u know today is homestuck day. happy homestuck day eveyrbody

reading the poe clan rn...

bro this shit is so peak... 

70s manga paneling was so good bruh i dont see stuff like this nowadays that much
everyone just uses standard squares and rectangles. i love unique paneling like this

like i dont see people use like these parallelograms anymore idk

awesome new page guys check it out: https://otamotsauce.neocities.org/showaidoru

finally updated my dumbass website i was such a lazy bum during spring break

bruh i need to redo my about me page bro that shit is so ugly 💀💀

https://otamotsauce.neocities.org/shrines

two NEW pages actually

yuck

daily thoughts 4/6/26

the beatles-kpop phenomenon

bro its so funny how ex-kpop stans (or still current) kpop stans are becoming beatles stans and they treat them like how they treat their idol groups. like why are u feminizing 80 year old paul mccartney. bro its always the bts stans too.

bruh i remember like just a few years ago kpop fans fucking hated the beatles and now everyone loves them 😭especially bts fans were dragging the beatles all day long but now they just suddenly switched up and love them now.

its just so funny to me. bro. not the 60 year old british white band getting idol group treatment. 

also u will never meet a person more annoying than a bts/beatles stan. bro they think they have the greatest music taste ever for listening to two different bands 😭

draw me game on roblos

some drawings i did that im proud of on that game

rym

also i created an rym just for fun 

https://rateyourmusic.com/~otamotveggie

now i can archive which albums i listened to much more easier. yes i did rate every ymo album a 5/5

forget ppl really like my art sometimes

posted that one drawing on tumblr and it got 29 reblogs and 96 likes yay and it keeps going up. feel like tumblr is truly the only good social media left for artists. bro i tried posting art on instagram again and ur literally never going to become famous unless u do reels. literally ever since they got rid of the see latest on hashtags artists basically get 0 recognition lol.

but tumblr is so good. the community is so nice and ur art gets reblogged and liked years after u post it cuz its a blogging/archival site.

horsin around

finally finished this damn thing i couldve added more detail tho

also i finally came up with a story idea for these 2 kinda

daily thoughts 4/3/26

i really forget how popular showa idols were bruh, in other countries too cuz why is my mom blasting seiko matsuda and matchy in the kitchen rn

terrified of graduating

bruh im so scared of graduating it genuinely feels like its tormenting me everyday. i hate it when something is abt to end soon because i never feel any closure with the things that end in my life. i keep getting this anxiety abt things ending without me getting closure. like its so close. everything is abt to end yet i cant remember any good memories that i have gained. is this really what my life is gonna be like. just pure noise.

this happened to me like 4 years ago too when i was moving. idk i wasnt ready to move on yet and i got attached to my therapist and i didnt want to say bye to her. and when i had to leave my art class i just felt so empty.

im so fucking scared 😭😭 it really is so daunting. excruciating. i hate seeing others happy while i suffer. everyone going to or having a graduation party and it makes me sick. 

brujrkgk i get so easily attached to anyone who shows even a little bit of interest in me. im gonna miss my teachers unironically. and anyone who even interacted with me.

idk why i can never find a sense of closure for anything. 

grimdark rose

alt

daily thoughts 4/1/26

dont wanna deal with this school anymore

brou im gonna kms when spring break ends and i have to go back to school. i genuinely hate interacting with people 😭💔 idk if its just this school or if i just hate ppl in general but i hate the people at this school bro. i dont feel connected at all i swear 

i just feel down ig cuz i barely did anything fun my highschool years. also i think this is my least favorite school that i ever attended

also ai

fucking hate it when kids at my school say that no job is safe from ai bro who do u think did this 😭😭

they say this and then keep using chatgpt bro like go kill urself like genuinely. ur literally the reason why the ai market keeps expanding. is it really that hard to not use it. i swear.