daily thoughts 7/30/25

yknow what actually i hate ashita no joe bro its all this series' fault that i picked muay thai as a sport. i regret it so much 😭😭like i hate violence and people who play sports why did i choose this sport bro 😭😭

i hate people who play sports so bad like omg theyre all so pretentious. the boys are so annoying pls get a personality outside of basketball and soccer. 

also i cant believe girls who play sports are just as annoying as boys who play sports. like i know this one girl in one of my classes that thinks shes better than everyone just cuz she does track like girl be serious u not even playing a sport ur just running and u think ur somehow better than everyone 😭

daily thoughts 7/29/25

ymo glazing again

yo who the hell was the graphic designer for ymo like all of these are so aesthetically pleasing

i loveee this one !!!!! the baseball theme...

why is all the promo art for x multiplies so good

i love their album covers esp the one right above. its one of my fav album covers of all time

childhood crushes !!

speaking abt romantic relationships i kinda want to talk abt my childhood crushes (yes inspired by emirichu) just for fun

tbh i really cant remember most of my childhood crushes i dont think i had many but ill try to think

from the earliest to most current !1

#1: Shinichi Kudo (Detective Conan)!!!

hes the earliest childhood crush that i could remember 😭😭i could see why little me had a crush on him but looking at him now i can only say that he sucks and heiji hattori is better and cooler

#2: Father (Kids Next Door)

i was only attracted to his voice okay!!! maurice lamarche is incredible

#3: Ralph Macchio </3

i had a crush on him when i watched the karate kid </3

#4: Nicholas D. Wolfwood (Trigun)

hes so cool ngl i can see why i was attracted to him. im a vash girlie now tho

#5: reigen (mp100)

BARK BARK BARK WOOF WOOF WOFOFFOFEWFJO

#6: Lady Oscar (Rose of Versailles)

who didnt tho. it shoudlve been me!!! not a*dre

#7: Rose Quartz (Steven Universe)

tbh idk if this really counts as a crush i just really really like her. and u cannot deny her beauty

#8: Kogoro Mouri (Detective Conan)

this was more down the line when i got back into dcmk a little bit a few years ago. i love men with moustaches <3

#9: Hiroshi Nohara (Crayon Shin Chan)

just look at him. hes so handsome <3 i want this figure so bad

#10: Free De La Hoya (Beyblade Burst Evolution) 

😭😭😭i watched beyblade just for him when i was like 12 im cryign bro idk anything abt beyblade. i just thought he was cute

#11: Seong Gi-Hun (Squid Game)

he was so cutie pie. i love middle aged men who try to do good for their kids <3 and no i still have not watched squid game s2 and s3

#12: Yukihiro Takahashi 

ok yeah who saw this coming. god he is so cute. just a guy who loves fishing and dogs and fashion. did u guys know yuki was also a fashion designer as well and he has his own brand called bricks mono. did u guys know that he made a lot of the costumes for ymo live tours. i love him 😭😭

#13: Ryuichi Sakamoto

this gotta be the most kpop idol core photo of ryuichi

who saw this one coming!! yeah im definitely a ymo fan for the music guys i swear. putting two pics of him because i love him that much </3 maybe the most gorgeous man thats ever lived. why is this 70 yo man fine as hell 😂😂👀👀🤑🤑 i love you so much ryuichi sakamoto my little goth catboy grandpa.

ok thats all i remember for now i might update this later because this is so fun. also me including 2/3 ymo members on here is so funny. i love you haruomi hosono but u were lowkey chopped

also this is getting long but i kinda cant tell the difference between a crush and like just finding them nice i guess??? cuz i have a lot more characters that i can put if its just finding them endearing like joe (anj), ryo (devilman), kamille bidan (zeta gundam), and lots more

daily thoughts 7/28/25

the way so many ppl prioritize romantic relationships over friendships truly hurts me so bad like. im not even aroace or anything but i value friendships way more than romantic ones. i dont even know if i want a romantic relationship tbh.

like the thought of one of my friends just completely abandoning me after they find a partner hurts me so bad. i feel like its especially worse with girls cuz theyre taught from a young age that they need to find a man. 

like i believe romantic relationships and friendships are different but u should still not think one is more important than the other!!

and not just that i just feel left out being the only one who hasnt had a romantic relationship yet. like i dont care but i also care 😭 like idc mostly but i know im gonna be made fun of for not having one and it just makes me sad. makes me kinda lose hope in friendships. i know its especially gonna be hell in college because everyone dates in college. maybe this is why ppl value romantic relationships more than friendships.

maybe the reason why i value friendships more than romantic ones is because i was terminally lonely ever since i was a kid

also if i ever do get into a romantic relationship and i start ignoring my friends just shoot me

thoughts

daily thoughts 7/27/25

i just remembered one of my very first vocaloid songs was secrets of wysteria and thinking abt that is actually so hilarious. like i didnt touch vocaloid in months because of that song. 

btw dont listen to secrets of wysteria it will actually scar you for life. im not even joking. i know this sounds like a joke but its not. that song is genuinely one of the most terrifying things ive ever witnessed like i clicked on that video once when i was a kid and i couldnt sleep for days. i kinda want to revisit it but i just click off to a diff video everytime cuz i dont have enough courage to listen to that song in its entirety. 

the fact that a vocaloid song is one of the things that scared me so bad to this day is so crazy. if u have the courage to listen to that song and watch the mv then go do it. i really cant. 

if u want to know what secrets of wysteria is abt. its a song based on a real life serial killer that i cant even say the name cuz i dont want people to go searching up that stuff because i did and i couldnt sleep for days. like genuinely maybe one of the worst people of all time. my god everytime i think abt this song or that real life person who existed i get so scared.

daily thoughts 7/26/25

ok im backk guyss im normal now didnt post a lot cuz i was extremely busy!!! but hey!!! i started learning the piano again!! im so excited!! thank you ryuichi sakamoto for giving me my life back!!

but i literally forgot everything abt piano tbh like i can still play it and some songs they just come naturally to me but omg i forgot how hard piano is. i was never a good piano player at all esp since i had so much anxiety when i was a kid. my hands would always tremble and miss notes because i didnt want my piano teacher to judge me. 

idk how long it will take for me to get good but im just gonna keep doing it. i wish i never quit. this is so fun. i played a short ver of merry christmas mr lawrence and it made me happy :)

also i moved houses!! i really like my new house better than the old one. idk why but for some reason i feel like ive lived in this new house before. it feels strangely nostalgic.

daily thoughts 7/24/25

ok im back i feel better now that was such a rough hurdle to get through im still kinda not in the right state of mind though rn

im gonna start a new series called daily thoughts where i write my daily thoughts cuz i lowkey use this blog just to dump my thoughts

omg bro this one friend of mine wont stop sending me unfunny instagram reels helpp me i dont mind if they send funny or relatable ones or send reels occasionally but they do it all the time. i dont even like it. like its not even funny. sometimes they send me ai slop too and i just have to sigh. like what do u want me to say abt ur unfunny reel man

like just start a conversation with me man why does nobody want to text anymore stop sending me unfunny reels and just talk

speaking of texting why does nobody actually want to text anymore like everytime i text one of my friends they send the most driest reply ever or just go somewhere after replying and then theyre like gone for 3 hours until they reply again

and the one friend that i actually enjoyed texting to doesnt even text me anymore cuz she found new friends 😭😭 everytime i text her she just replies and then goes somewhere and doesnt come back till like an hour later oh my god

i need new friends bro i cant do this anymore. everyone is so insufferable sometimes